Working on a post for the day, the week, the month...this lead up to where I find myself here: about to board the flight for Edinburgh. In order to get Something out before I fly though, just this to touch base:
I woke up feeling scattered and a bit of a mess in the getting ready of the day. Not down about going at all- I'm ready and excited for that. But worried I haven't done enough, prepared enough, gotten ready 'right' enough. It's been a long and good month of tasks and preps and goodbye's (not real ones. see you later's if you will.) and visits. In the feeling of frazzle and disappointment in my perfectionistic self for not being more put together...I'm grateful that I have learned enough, grown enough in the past two years to not be surprised, or defeated by this thought process. No, I didn't do it perfectly. Yes, I am tired. God is still good, and I am being sent off feeling so cared and provided for.
On the car ride to the airport, a road trip with two friends, they remind me that I'm tired because spending time with people I love before I leave was important.
God's grace has been all over this month and I'm grateful and excited. I love this city, I love its people, I love my church. Going home a few weeks ago I got to see nephews and family and friends and it was a great visit. I feel so richly blessed, so covered in care, and am grateful that one of the most tangible ways that God reveals his grace to me in this life is through the community and people he has placed in it. His provision this month through the support of so many saying 'yes' to this mission to make known in Scotland that our God is good and makes all things new in Christ is bolstering.
This is probably about as scattered as my feelings this morning. :) But I wanted to send something stateside before I (hopefully) fall asleep hard on this flight and wake up to a new country and new time. One of my former professors today reminds me the adventure doesn't begin today, it already began long ago. Another friend texts to remind me that today I can feel whatever I need to. The Dwell scripture of the day is also appropriate. Daisy draws me a picture of the family and tells me she's going to fill her red bag full of cards for me. Lally makes coffee and Joel and Deanna put together important documents, big favors that they take on like it's nothing because we're family.
His grace is sufficient and his strength is made perfect in my weakness.
Praise God from whom all blessings flow
Here we go~
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